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This day was one of the most special days I’ve experienced in my life. It’s hard to find the words to express the gratitude flowing from my heart this evening, it’s keeping me awake as I thank God for a day saturated in such redemption and love.
My beloved Samuel.
My sweet mom.
My precious dad.
Such life-giving connection. God’s hand orchestrated this day, my mom's birthday, with such grace and I’m undone by His kindness.
My upbringing was filled with pain and difficulty. Both my parents struggled with addictions that nearly took their lives and I felt like the love that flooded the room today opened my eyes to the bigness and greatness of our God. His unfathomable love. For me. For my mom and dad. This day was a such sweet miracle.
After getting engaged to Samuel and beginning to dream of the beauty of our wedding day, questions in my heart arose silently. About family, what all this should look like. All the foster families that stepped in to love my brother and I will no doubt be there, but my heart longed to see my mom and dad honored and celebrated with me on that day.
After being unsure about where my dad is for over years, I got a call in response to a missing persons report that my mom filed.. I got the call 2 days after Samuel and I got engaged.
"Is this Helen Wright?"
"Hi Helen. We heard you are looking for your father. We have him here, he is safe and doing okay. Would you like to see him?"
Floods of emotions hit. Such relief, such joy, such fear.
I took a few days to process when to see him.
-- Recently my relationship with my mom has been completely transformed and redeemed. A standard of love has been restored and God has brought such incredible healing where there was once disconnection and hurt. Samuel and I decided we were going to celebrate my mom on her birthday and take her wherever her heart desired. "Knotts Berry farm, a nice place to eat, wherever you want mama" -- I was just humbled and undone by her response, "Sweetheart, lets just spend my birthday going to see your dad."
I've never known my dad all that well. My mom struggled to raise my brother and I alone. Every few years we'd get a call or card, but no genuine connection and relationship. My mom was left to do all the work alone, and her heart was left with deep scars from my dad.
The forgiveness, selflessness and genuine care my mom had for my dad after all these years moved my heart deeply.
Most of my life we didn't know where he was.
At seasons he was homeless and sick.
Discovering he was alive was a miracle in itself, but my heart was no prepared for the reconciliation I witnessed on this day.
After years and years of being apart, my dad looked my mom in the eyes and spoke words of healing and love. My mom sat beside his sick and half-paralyzed body, feeding him, laughing with him and telling him, "It's ok Michael, your family is here now, we love you. It's all ok now."
I was undone by the selfless love pouring out of my mom's heart.
Samuel and I sat back in awe.
All those years of misjudgments in my heart against my mom for hurt caused me, and this moment corrected my every judgment. The Holy Spirit came into the room and you could feel the pleasure of the Lord releasing healing and reconciliation like only God can.
Samuel and I told my dad we were getting married. He was beaming with joy, he always wanted a son. My dad is almost blind, so he drew Samuel close to his face to see him, and began speaking love and life, approval and kindness over Samuel. "You are a great son, and I love you." Samuel spoke words of life and love over my dad and you could feel the love of God tangibly in the room.
We laughed, I held back the tears and just stood in awe of the miracle of the moment, only my loving God could have orchestrated. Although the enemy's fingerprints were all over our family being broken apart, I could see God's fingerprints all over this moment of reconciliation and love. Thank you King Jesus for this sweet, unforgettable moment.